Whole 30 - DAY ONE

Well, here it is! Day One! I can't believe I'm finally doing this.  I'm kind of overwhelmed with feelings of failure already.  I know I shouldn't and my husband keeps telling me to speak positive things.  I guess when you're just so hard on yourself already you think the worst is going to happen.  But after grocery shopping and meal prepping for this week, I felt pretty powerful actually! It is very strange.... Looking at a label an going "Nope!" and that feels very good and powerful.  The food that I have, I am actually excited to eat.  I think that's what's different about the whole 30.  I don't load my grocery cart up with leafy vegetables and fruit and a few low fat high chemical extras that I'm not excited for.  I get to eat grass-fed ground beef, Pork Loin, and chicken thighs.  I also get yummy fats like avocados, coconut oil/milk/butter, and it was awesome making the Whole 30 Mayo and the Sunshine Sauce.  Still gotta make the Morrocan Sauce though.

I followed this meal plan for week one, and that just took most of the anxiety away!  God bless Melissa Joulwan!  I followed everything to a T and it just really helped me feel more powerful and prepared.  Now I know I will need to take some initiative in the future to plan my own recipes and meals etc but I just for now need this plan showing me exactly what to do.

Soo last night, I had a few glasses of wine and ate a bowl of pasta for my "last meal".  I started pitching just about everything that was off plan, and ate a few of those things too.  Also very relevant because  yesterday was "Fat Tuesday", the day before Lent.  I decided to start today which was Lent as my co-worker who is doing it with me wanted to do.  So after I had my cheat meal and finished up meal prep, I GOT SICK.  Yeah, I got sick... what the hell.  Plus I got a whole lot of anxiety and dreams of failure.  This morning I was still a wreck from being sick at night and called of from work, which I really needed to go into work today to get some things done and be on track with my cases.  So, not the best start.  At all. I just made Aidell's Apple Chicken Sausage, reheated some green beans sauteed in coconut oil, half of a baked sweet potato, and half of an avocado.  I was/am still so sick I can't finish it. However, I have been talking with my co-worker who is doing it and we are both just really proud of ourselves for being on day one! It's exciting after talking about doing something and comparing notes on research we've been reading for like a year.  It's time to actually do something and stop being so miserable!  In our small town, there's not a lot of options and frankly, not a lot of other people eating the way we are.  We are the minority.  But we. are. doing. it.

So HERE WE GO!! WOOOOO!!!