Whole 30 - DAY ONE

Well, here it is! Day One! I can't believe I'm finally doing this.  I'm kind of overwhelmed with feelings of failure already.  I know I shouldn't and my husband keeps telling me to speak positive things.  I guess when you're just so hard on yourself already you think the worst is going to happen.  But after grocery shopping and meal prepping for this week, I felt pretty powerful actually! It is very strange.... Looking at a label an going "Nope!" and that feels very good and powerful.  The food that I have, I am actually excited to eat.  I think that's what's different about the whole 30.  I don't load my grocery cart up with leafy vegetables and fruit and a few low fat high chemical extras that I'm not excited for.  I get to eat grass-fed ground beef, Pork Loin, and chicken thighs.  I also get yummy fats like avocados, coconut oil/milk/butter, and it was awesome making the Whole 30 Mayo and the Sunshine Sauce.  Still gotta make the Morrocan Sauce though.

I followed this meal plan for week one, and that just took most of the anxiety away!  God bless Melissa Joulwan!  I followed everything to a T and it just really helped me feel more powerful and prepared.  Now I know I will need to take some initiative in the future to plan my own recipes and meals etc but I just for now need this plan showing me exactly what to do.

Soo last night, I had a few glasses of wine and ate a bowl of pasta for my "last meal".  I started pitching just about everything that was off plan, and ate a few of those things too.  Also very relevant because  yesterday was "Fat Tuesday", the day before Lent.  I decided to start today which was Lent as my co-worker who is doing it with me wanted to do.  So after I had my cheat meal and finished up meal prep, I GOT SICK.  Yeah, I got sick... what the hell.  Plus I got a whole lot of anxiety and dreams of failure.  This morning I was still a wreck from being sick at night and called of from work, which I really needed to go into work today to get some things done and be on track with my cases.  So, not the best start.  At all. I just made Aidell's Apple Chicken Sausage, reheated some green beans sauteed in coconut oil, half of a baked sweet potato, and half of an avocado.  I was/am still so sick I can't finish it. However, I have been talking with my co-worker who is doing it and we are both just really proud of ourselves for being on day one! It's exciting after talking about doing something and comparing notes on research we've been reading for like a year.  It's time to actually do something and stop being so miserable!  In our small town, there's not a lot of options and frankly, not a lot of other people eating the way we are.  We are the minority.  But we. are. doing. it.

So HERE WE GO!! WOOOOO!!!

Whole 30- Newbie Chronicles

Many of you may have found my little blog through my new instagram, Whole30_Newbiechronicles.  I'm happy you're here! You're now my little inner circle; the people who I share my thoughts with beyond what I normally would.  If you've found this blog, you probably don't know me personally, and I love that!  I share a lot on here and it's nice to be a little more open.

If you do know me, this blog may share a little more about myself than I share in my day to day with you.  That's okay too, but if you have any questions about things I post here, ask me in person! Also, maybe it's a good lesson in "don't judge a book by it's cover."

If you only knew what I was going through behind this smile.

When we last left off, I was healing and rejoicing in the renewal of something very important to me.  God had never left me and got me through the most difficult time in my life.  I was so excited, thankful, and happy.  I had lost over 40 lbs, some of it through healthy diet and exercise, and the other lbs were through starvation and overwork when I was walking my difficult journey.  I was down to 127lbs, and not in a healthy way.  When the stress subsided and my husband snuggled me, loved me and took me out to dinner all the time, I became relaxed, happy and thankful.

And fat.

I got fat.

There ya go, people!  See, I told you I would be honest.  Thank God for the support of lovely strangers. Don't judge. Don't judge.

I was diagnosed with an autoimmune disease in April 2014.  More about that later.

I have been pretty miserable with my health for about a year, and the depression hit with my diagnosis.  I have been researching the Autoimmune protocol, Paleo, Endo Diet and other types of elimination protocols for about a year.  I'm a total nerd and I love reading about healing through nutrition.  I love that kinda crap.  

Enter in:  WHOLE 30!

One of my co-workers has been struggling with an autoimmune disorder as well and I have opened up to her with my struggles and trying to learn more.  She asked me last week to hold her accountable throughout her first whole 30 and asked if I'd like to join.  I quickly researched it and I was ALL IN.

So I totally completely freakishly jumped in!

Now, I am an informed junk food over eater.  I know it's bad, I know why, and I still eat it.  Did I mention I also have chronic stress disorder? 

Ya....I'm a mess...

I created aforementioned Instagram account and immediately began my personal journal.  I started my week one meal plan so that each Meal is accounted, shopped and prepped for.  I even got another co-worker and maybe my husband to join!

The day one of my Whole 30 is going to be on February 18th, which is the first day of Lent.  Please Join me along the way!